I know I know I haven’t updated a video in so long.
First of all, I wish I could go into detail everything, but I just can’t. Most of ya’ll know Mason went to go get her speech evaluation. Her results came back a few weeks, and it’s a severe disfluency. I didn’t believe the “severe” part until I finally heard her block completely. It tore my heart apart. As a parent with the same “disability”, it tears at your heart strings. She even has the “quirks” I have. She changes her words, or doesn’t answer.
The feeling of guilt is there. I won’t lie to you. She blocks, changes her words to not stutter, or doesn’t answer at all. Her chances of growing of it are slim to none. 1) for the fact of it’s hereditary at least 5 people in my family stutter, and 2) her family support is not there. (that’s ANOTHER story I’m not willing to go into) Some of ya’ll know I’m going through a HORRIBLE custody battle. Most of ya’ll don’t, so that’s why I don’t want to go there. The fact she has the little “quirks” of a stutterer, also gives me the idea she won’t grow out of it.
I will say I’m a PROUD parent of a stutterer as well. We have a bond that no one can ever break. I’ll be there for her, and yes I will push her when she gets uncomfortable. She will need it, but she can always be frustrated and come to me in the end.
this is something I was dreading since she was a little girl. I will look at this as a blessing in disguise, and know I have another battle of acceptance of stuttering. Not my own anymore, my daughters…..
